Reporter finds carrying a gun carries weighty responsibility npr illinois

It was all interesting stuff, but I just assumed we’d be spending a little more time with guns. We did a few drills taking guns in and out of holsters, properly loading them, we even learned how to clean our firearms. But the first eight-hour day was spent completely inside a classroom. I came to realize that was intentional. There’s more to carrying a gun, than just the physical act of carrying a gun. It’s a moral, ethical and religious responsibility.

“A lot of us, when we take the class, when you first start carrying a firearm it gives you a sense of euphoria like I can defend myself,” said Feagans. “But we really don’t look and think about the repercussions of our actions down the road.


We talk about what’s going to happen if you ever have to defend yourself and you do shoot somebody … that you’re not going to be the hero that everybody might pretend you’re going to be; you’re going to be the topic around the water coolers. It’s going to weigh heavy on your mind, if you’re any kind of person at all.”

By the time the second day rolled around I was feeling ambiguous, at best. As I sat in the same chair at the front of the classroom sifting through legislation, learning about where I could carry, where I couldn’t, de-escalation techniques, making sure I was never the aggressor, I found myself wondering: Do I want to do this? Do I really want to be the person who pulls the trigger and takes a life? What will the legal ramifications be? And, would I be able to live with myself after the fact?

Cody Stanley, another student who is a staunch gun rights supporter, was a little concerned with how easy it is to obtain a Firearm Owner Identification card. Right now, anyone in the state can submit an application online, pay a small fee, pass a background check and get their card within 30 days. With that FOID card, you’re eligible to possess and purchase as many legal firearms you’d like, regardless of your experience.

“I think there needs to be more about the FOID aspect because when you get a FOID card you don’t have to know anything about guns really at all,” said Stanley. “You just do something online and you get a card in the mail. You go to a gun store, they say ‘do you know what you’re doing? Sure.’ And that’s it. As far as concealed carry, it’s up to the individual. You can’t necessarily have a course that’s 80 hours long, realistically, but at the same time, this doesn’t cover everything. It does enough, I personally think, but I think there should be more done about the FOID card before.”

“They tend to say that it’s like, you know, gun owners on one side and gun violence prevention people on the other side, which is absolutely not true,” said Daley. “Because the vast majority of gun owners are really supportive of training; they understand the awesome responsibility that comes with owning a firearm, and they want to make sure that they’re being safe.”

“One of the things we talk about, we’d love to go into more detail … is what should you do, what shouldn’t you do,” he said. “You run out of gas, um, you should sit in the passenger seat of the car instead of the driver seat so if somebody drives by, they see a vulnerable lady sitting there they realize she’s not alone. Somebody else was there because she’s in the passenger seat.”

Firearms can be beneficial. But where there are more guns, there are more accidental deaths, as well. According to a Harvard Injury Control Report, four states with the most guns had a mortality rate that was 7 times higher when compared with the four states with the fewest guns. And most accidental shootings, happen to young people who have been shot by a friend or a family member. As a mother, I worry about this.

I sat down with Amy after the class was over. She’s the woman who works overnights at a gas station. We’re both women who want to protect ourselves. So, what were her thoughts? After 16 hours of class and hitting a few targets, was she ready?

“I think I would do probably four, five more sessions probably a more private one-on-one training just to get really used to it,” she said. “I probably won’t conceal to carry as soon as I get that until I’m really, really comfortable with having it on me myself… like the nervous part of it, you know, being like ‘oh my gosh I’ve actually got it on myself.’ Feeling paranoid would probably the biggest part of it.”

And she’s not alone. If I was approved to carry a gun, I would want to spend more time in the firing range. But knowing how to use a gun and actually doing so are two different things. Speaking for myself, I’m unsure if morally I’ll ever be ready for that responsibility. And maybe, that was whole point of the class.